What Does it Mean by "Growing"

My Journey to 20 

I just can't believe that I've been through all of this and survive, most of us think the same way pathetically.

Yup as you guys read the title, I’m going to be 20 OMG, but that's not about the whole article i wanna write about, okay no small talk, let's jump to the thing i wanna share.

 'Life'

Life, we were born and we gotta face yet deal with it. It sounds creepy the way I describe life hahaha.

Alright, some people describe life as a choice, a process, we all know those sounds so cliche and boring, but apparently those are true, whatever the explanation about 'life' is am not going to tell you the wikipedia style of it because you could simply google it or just flip out your dictionary, besides everyone has their own perspective on how they portray life.

But since the title is apparently about me getting older and there’s a slight correlation between ‘life’ and ‘growing’ so i gotta explain a bit about ‘life’, ohh i've repeated this word a thousand times.

Am not going to be naive and being sweet by providing white lies in this article, let's be true and honest. Isn't it pretty hard just to survive this life? Who agrees with me? You answer yourself. Indeed, it is life, it's not easy at all, but we could choose to live it in a hard or easy ways, or otherwise i could say "we could simplify everything in life but at the same time we gotta take anything seriously, be balance" i guess that's the most proper way to give a picture, if you only get what i mean. We need a massive effort just to live this life, sometimes we are all tired, feeling jaded, hurt, confused, stuck, and feel like we just want to stop, disappear, and even give up on our life, i've been there too, believe me, most of teenage had feel that grief at least once in their life, i got multiples hehe.

Before 20 I went through a lot, I experienced significant moments, I learned a lot of life lessons, I’m facing tremendous trials and tribulations, but i can't explain them one by one here unless it will be a bunch of historical books of my own growth, and I will probably cry, wasting my own tears, no am not gonna do it. What am going to talk to is specifically about

 'growing.'

It is a comprehensive topic to be discussed, but here is my opinion, basically every article i write is based on my opinion and life experience so yeah. But, to grow it means to be an ultimate human being, by living this life we grow. As the other said, life is a process and a choice, to grow also needs a process and to be grown we need to choose which one is the best choice for it, for us. Do you believe in "long life learning"? Because that's the point of growing, we take lessons for our own sake and everybody's good. I believe that we are able to take a lesson from what life has offered and gives to us, "life full of surprise" they say and there is always something you could get, even if it is empty. At the very least you learn about how you gotta earn with your own effort for something in front of you. That’s the purpose, to gain, earn, learn, and take lessons from a particular event that sometimes we don't want, because life has already given to us. 

Especially for my youth readers, growing up sucks, we all feel trapped, and then we start missing our childhood when everything feels just so right, and start cursing our life and blaming the situation, am i wrong? No.

It is tough and we hate it.

Messing up, making mistakes, doing the right or wrong thing, choosing the wrong decision, getting through in a hard situation, feeling sorry, stuck, reckeless, vulnerable, being fragile, being stupid, being toxic, confused, meeting the wrong person, feeling lost, loosing something or someone, being selfish, feeling so wrong, feeling empty, what else i gotta put on here, whatever happen in the current situation of your life. They are part of the process tho, what matters the most is how we are dealing with it.

  

That's okay to do and feel in certain ways, it's a start to grow.

When you are about to grow, the first thing you gotta do is try to recognize what actually happen to you and surrounding, but it's not that easy, exactly. Sometimes everything just seems so blurry but time and all in this universe will help you to find out (actually God does it the most, no wonder). Growing means moving, i once read a quote "to keep this life balance you gotta keep moving". 

To grow you need to accept, listen, understand, and change. These are basically my secret recipe for my own growth, but it works pretty well. Growing means by moving, so we can’t keep ourselves stuck in that deep hole or stuck in our comfort zone that we used to fill our brain telling ourselves as a safe place, that's not. With the older your age gets comes along the weight of growing you must own. Sometimes we are too selfish, preventing our own growth by keeping our pride, ambition, lust, unstable mind yet behavior, and bad habits we own. Everything has consequences darling, including growing, we gotta let go of the bad goods to get something even bigger and better.

this is the closure, TO BE BETTER WE NEED TO GROW.

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P.S. This article is dedicated to my mom, my dad, my brother, all of my family members, my friends, my teachers, and all the people that were once here in my life. I cannot be who i am in the present without all of you that helps me grow and be a better person, without all of you it's also impossible for me to survive and live my life, i just wanna say thank you for everything that you've done to me. I never asked to be born but here i am, living this life that I call a 'bliss' that God gives me and i feel beyond lucky to be here living my great life. I'm about to be 20 this year and it's been a challenging yet awesome journey, but this still continues, i'm still doing my mission of my own growth, let's see what's coming next.

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